Feeling Good

I got up and made lunch and dinner to take with me to work. I made chicken salad and took yogurt, cheese, strawberries, apples, and cucumbers. I work late on Wednesdays and didn't want to worry about what to eat.

I have several people telling me how good I look and it makes me a bit nervous. I'm not the type to want anyone to notice me. I like to blend into the background and have the attention on someone else.

Even though I brought all this food all I could think about was the cheese bread from Little Caesars. Better known as ICB. I also was thinking about a chocolate chip cookie. I may want these things but I am getting healthier for me and chose to eat the fruits and veggies I brought.

YUK

I woke up this morning with the worst heartburn I've ever had and if I hadn't known better I would have thought I was having a heart attack. I couldn't catch my breath, sweating, nausea had set in. It took until 11:30 am to get it under control. I had eaten tums like they were candy and went and bought pepcid and it still took 4-5 hours to be comfortable enough to go to work. I am sure it was eating all of those carbs I'm not used to eating, or the Mt. Dew. It tasted so good at the time, but was it worth the inability to function the next day? I'm still on the fence about this one--the joy vs the pain?? The immediate gratification or the aftermath of my decisions??

Lets just say I was very nervous about eating and ate sparingly all day.

Playing with Family

We had plans to go tubing when church was out. We ended up being later than we thought because we were going to BBQ and I waited to eat and shouldn't have because I was overly hungry when we did eat.

I did hike up and tubed down the side of the mountain about 5 times. I was out of breath each time but had fun and just thought that 2 months ago I wouldn't have been able to have fun with my kids like that. I definitely wouldn't have been able to fit into my snow pants. They were a bit tight but not that bad. I just had a hard time breathing when I had to bend over to put on the snow boots.

Shannon provided all the food which was nice, but a carb lovers dream. Hot dogs roasted on an open fire, chips, cookies, doughnuts, and soda! So, I had a little but of everything then climbed the mountain again and again so I could burn off some of those carbs. I left feeling a bit sick. I am just not used to the high fat and high carbs I have been eating these past few days. You think I'd learn right. Nope, it takes me a bit longer.

Socializing

We had a party with our friends. It was fun to be cooking and socializing again. We are always eating with socializing. These events scream high fat and high carbs at our house. No wonder I have so much weight to loose...

Traditional ABSolute

I have been somewhat overwhelmed by the choices I have on the traditional diet. I really feel like I'm eating too much and like I have lost control. There are so many more variable...like I used to eat non fat cottage cheese and now I'm told I need to be eating a bit more fat so I was bumped up to 2% fat cottage cheese. So if I eat that can I still use olive oil or butter to cook or is everything a bit more lean!

I do feel I have more energy and confidence since the weight is coming off. And to see the inches and weight just falling off is such a motivator. I find myself able to run up the stairs where before I got winded just walking up the stairs.

Regrets

I woke up at about 12:30 am with the worst stomach cramps. I couldn't decide if it was from eating the cheesecake of the flu. I was up about every 1 1/2 hours and then at 7 am all the symptoms were gone. So, I ate breakfast cautiously.

I made the yummiest chicken salad for lunch with celery and grapes!

I am kind of tired and find myself thinking about food more. It has been cold outside and I just feel like baking. Who could I bake fore?

I did measurements again today and I've lost a total of 18 1/2 inches. I had to check twice, WOW!

Party

I had the kids get the fruit tray ready and a dessert (rice krispies) made while I was gone at work today. When I got home we went to my Parents' party. I ate sensibly again. I had roast, fresh fruit, veggies, and a bit of potatoes. Then, I saw the cheesecake. It called to me until I ate 1/2 a slice. It was so good and had the best texture of any of the things I ate the whole night. After the party we went to a show with the family. I also made cookies for the girls at work today. They LOVED it!!